Dream guy?..

Dream guy?

Hair color-Black or Brown (:
Eyes-Hazel or brown
Height-Taller than me..so 5,9?
Six Pack-I don't really care much..just not fat
Long or short hair-LONG HAIRR!!
Piercings-Eyebrow and nipple *Jizzzz*
Scars-...flawless please
Eyebrows-Nothing like Charlie Simpson's
Big butt or little-A nice butt..an average, decent, nice butt..
Straight teeth, gap or braces-Straight teeth.
Funny or serious-Both, he has to be serious with still good humour
Party or stay at home-Both? since i'm both anyway
Should he cook or bake-Cook! I do the baking
Should he have a best friend-obviously
Outgoing or shy-a little bit of both (:
Sarcastic or sincere-A sarcastic motherfucker
Should he love his mother-If he wants to?
Should he watch chick flicks-With me? yes.
Would he be a smoker-No..i don't know..just don't give me second hand cancer
Would he drink-Sure..no alcoholic though
Would he swear-sure..whatever
Would he pay for dates-Pshh yes.
Does he kiss on the first date-I don't know?
Where would you go to dinner-His house
Would he bring you flowres-No, thats waay too..soppy and cliche
Would he write poetry about you-not poetry..more like an essay about his undying love for me?
Would he call you honey, sweetie or baby-none. If any at all, he should call me by my name..i find that hot.
Would you hang out with him and his friends-Yess, sometimes
Will he walk you to the door at the end of a date-If he wants
Play piano-sure?
Play drums-sure?
Play guitar-sure?
Clean his room-Don't care much
Paint, draw, sculpt-Free will?
Use the word dude-Sure, i use it a lot
Use the word tight-FUCK NO!
What kind of car does he drive-A driveable car ^^
How old is he-My age or a year older than me (:

I am so very bored :L

What am i?

I've been putting myself in religions for a long while now..and i've finally given up, nothing seems to please me any more religiously..apart from of course George Carlin (The funniest athiest)
So..if i was to put my beliefs in accord to organized religions..where would i come?
..Buddhist Athiest? pagan athiest?

Buddhism-since i believe in reincarnation (so do hindus) karma (so do hindus..) and well buddha (since he was a real person!)

Athiest- There is no God

Pagan-I worship nature..i see nature, i feel nature..i am one with nature. And considering nature is what helps us (or even makes us) stay alive, i trust it wholeheartedly and praise it.

So i believe in reincarnation, the soul, karma..but the idea of a god does not impress me at all.
In wise words of George Carlin..
"if there is a God, it has to be a man.
No woman could or would ever fuck things up like this"

so thinking about it..if there is a god..it has to be a man. Being a man means being human. Being human means being...naturally a complete dickhead!

So either God isn't real..or God is a human replicate. Since not all humans have the qualities that 'god' apparently has..i doubt God is a human..therefore God is not real.

So what am i? a Buddhist pagan athiest? a Buddhist? (since they don't agree with the idea of god anyway..although i don't agree that we should find refuge in the buddha..making me a non-buddhist)or just fucked up?
I would say fucked up..but i think my point is pretty valid, therefore i'd say i'm a buddhist athiest? i don't even know.

Polyvore (:

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Out of the shadows

Crouching down inside a deep ravine
Those angry cries pass quickly by, he can't be seen
So many ways spent hiding in so many undone plans
Forgetting what it's like to fight when no one understands
Close call there in the shadows
There's a fear in the dark
There's one out there

All those memories, pain and anger, flood back one by one
They must be just around the bend, they always come
At night as I lay sleeping they come to me in herds
Their lies remain, the dreams the same, it's only fleeting words
No one calls there in the shadows
There's no end to the dark
But there's one out there, no one but me....
The hours pass so slowly, the life's slipping out of me
No way's the right way. Is there a way out for me?
My life's slipping out...

Rising up, the night is done, and now the bright lights come
Held back in my pitied world where everything's undone
A cold wind blows right through me, I'm made a hollow shell
There's nothing left, just ash remains, enrich the soil, no soil
Close call there in the shadows
There's an end to the dark
'Cause there's someone out there
Someone like me...

The hours pass so slowly, the life's slipping out of me
No way's the right way, is there a way out for me


Out of the shadows- Sarah McLachlan

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I Love these women...

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Betty Page

Betty Grable

Josephine Baker

Dita Von Teese

They're eclectic, brave and very beautiful.

Life

My life is like a speeding car
And I don't know where to turn
I wish I could just fly away far
Far from this heartburn

So much time has passed me by
And yet I stand alone
Wishing I could close my eyes
And let all my tears go

I wish I could just run from my fears
Just keep running while I plug my ears
Just close my eyes and go to sleep
Just hide my thoughts way down deep
Just push away the sorrows and fly away
and never come back
Til another day

My life is like the sands of time
I don't know where I'm going
Staring into outer space
I stand there always knowing

There are so many troubles in the air
Happiness is rare
Looking up at the bright glowing moon
I wish I were up there
Anywhere but here

I wish I could just walk away
And watch my spirit soar
And I'm never ever going to come back again
Til I find love and peace once more

BULLET FOR THE WIN!!

IM SEEING BULLET FOR MY VALENTINE IN DECEMBER!!

I am currently jizzing myself, i've honestly been waiting for this for tooo long!

I said last year, Bullets next concert IM GOING. Bcos ive missed so many, seeing as i find out late then when i reach the order tickets, theyre all sold out ¬¬ WELL NOT ANYMORE i have ordered the tickets...they are coming and i am..EXTASTIC?!! (how do you spell it?)

Anyways, Litha's coming up soon and im certainly prepered for the ritual im gonna do-go me stuff.

Anyways im off :)

Gods of the Ancestors

So, a while ago i was talking with my mum about my ancestors belief, and to my surprise paganism wasn't too far down the line from me; In fact my grandfather was a High priest in one of the pagan covens of his village. The pantheon was 'Odinani' which was mainly surrounded amongst the Igbo people (Nigeria)

They mainly worshipped three deities, two of which is still believed today but then included into Christianity.

Chukwu- This was the highest God, the sky God, the central deity who i guess if compared to other countries such as Greece..was equal to Cronous or Zues. Today he is still mentioned in Christianity, except he is the only God and is used as another name for the Christian God (Jehovah)

Alusi- This was the Goddess of the Earth and fertility, she resembles the Goddesses Gaia, Luna, Isis. She was always there for the women of that tribe when they were marriage problems or childbirth. She was then abolished and abounded after the christianization of Nigeria.

Ekwensu- Like every Pantheon out there, there was the God who was a trickster or...lets say, not such a good person; but was no looked at as the devil as they do not believe in him. Ekwensu was the god of tricking, mischief and also looked at as the god of war. Later Ekwensu was then looked at as the devil in the Christian belief.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Odinani#Alusi

The pantheon had many things going on, magick was everywhere and so was the ability to control the elements. They had 'rain makers' who would make something that would trigger the rain in that certain village or community. This may seem impossible, but they simply burnt certain materials or woods.

They believed in things called 'Chi' which were spirits that were anointed to certain people for a particular reason. For example;

• Mbatuku: spirit of wealth
• Ikoro: drum spirit
• Ekwu: heart spirit or spirit of the home
• Imo miri: river spirit^[11]
• Okwara-afo: god of mercantile activities
• Aju-mmiri: goddess of prosperity, fertility and general well-being.
• Ogbuide: goddess of the water
• Urashi and Enyija: god of the river
• Ezenwaanyi/Owummiri: Female Water Spirit, Mermaid, Seductress

This belief is still held in some places, but it is no longer the mainstream and was dying just like ordinary paganism.

On my fathers side, he had ancestors from Celtic paganism (as he is part irish) but his ancestors as far as he could remember were all missionaries, people who travelled about preaching the word of God. This is mainly how my family from my fathers side are so diverse.

Buttons of Blue

I made a bracelet out of blue buttons, i was pretty bored yesterday and i had my creativity box in front of me which had;

LOTS AND LOTS of blue buttons

elastic...or whatever

sewing needle

and thread

so...i made a bracelet, its not amazing and it did take a while; not forgetting the memorable times i ended up poking myself with the needle.

ANYHOW, i finally finished it off and was pretty proud of myself.

I often wear it, although its a bit baggy on me also some buttons are lose (not about to come off) just...lose.

Two of my friends want me to make them a bracelet of buttons...they're mad.

Pentacle of sticks

Right, so today i was bored and decided to create a blog (this one) and also to connect a bit with my spirituality.

So...

I made a pentacle for my altar out of sticks from the big plum tree in my front yard.

It look me 10 minutes to make and perfect, i was also considering painting it but then i decided not to since i would rather leave its natural colour to show.

but it wasn't just putting sticks together and wrapping something around it to hold it in place, it was also pretty much a ritual.

I lighted 4 white candles, invoking the 4 corners/elements to be at my midst...especially Earth since...its sticks, and sticks come from trees, and trees are part of nature and nature is the Earth.

Anyhow, at the end i was pretty happy with the result and my altar looks a lot more better and has more feeling into it (i also made a wand from a big stick which i then blessed, sharpened and placed on fire to cleanse it). it was in fact perfect for my altar (nothings ever perfect for me) so yeah, i guess i can say i've done something today.

I've also been watching so many videos, on the Gods, Goddesses and paganism/wicca. Maybe to fuel myself up a bit? perhaps, either way i feel really aggitated as i don't sense the presence of my Goddess or God around me. I could just be blocking any energies from reaching me, as im more concerned with researching or perhaps she/he is around but doesn't want me to sense them?

Oh well. xx